Blogging is hard. With my head bowed I make this entry. It has been far too long and these are the excuses I will make which is part of the problem to begin with (all the excuses I have made). I got the flu, the worst flu I have ever had and was sick for days in bed. Then I quit my job. I had been pondering this move for awhile and was given the impetus to move on one Tuesday afternoon. To move, forward motion, leave security of a paycheck to keep my dignity intact I was practically pushed out the door by my own will. That is all I will say but it is my excuse for not blogging.
When I made this move completely out of character and with no prospects it was as if the universe grabbed me in its infinite arms, scooped me up, gave me a huge pat on the back and said "Carla I will not let you fail". "Universe!!! how will I get another job in this economy? What about my Mom? I take care of her what was I thinking what will I do!?!?! I don't want to live in my car... what about my goals will I let myself down... again?" The Universe said... "you will get a job making more money with benefits so you can reach your goals personal and financial and it will start next Tuesday the anniversary of the day you finally believed enough in yourself to know you deserve more."
So sometimes bold moves are more than just impetuous sometimes they are a saving grace. Next Tuesday I start my new job. Thank you Universe and all the angels you sent to help.
This blog is about weight loss so here goes first of all thank you to those of you who said Carla what the hell? Why aren't you blogging? It feels good to know you are paying attention. The results of my first month came out on the 28th of October... I lost 7.6 pounds and 4.5 inches total. Those are not quite the numbers I was hoping for so the next thing that has to be tackled are my eating habits and sticking to the rules that have been laid down by my fearless friend Delia who has got my number and doesn't mind calling it to ask me why I am blowing it!!! I fell just shy of my goal of two pounds a week so if I want to meet my ultimate goal by my ultimate goal date I have to step it up and lose 3-4 pounds a week.
Observations so far include a few things that are hard to swallow. When you tell your friends that you are not drinking for a certain period of time to allow your body to detox and they buy you alcohol and continually try to make you drink it you start to wonder if A: they heard you when you said you aren't drinking B: if they want to sabotage your goal and C: if they need to go to an AA meeting. Please support what I am trying to do and please know that I am feeling honesty is the best policy nowadays more than ever in a way I cannot begin to describe but I think it has something to do with life being too short to not tell the truth.
I conclude by telling you about the evening I had last night on a double decker bus with about 40 other people and these guys Nite Kite Revival. I have to thank my friend Kym for sharing a love of spoken word poetry and for sharing this evening with me. These guys pick up the day... they just eat life up with a spoon. It reminded me that joy is okay and good and we need some more. Pretend You Live for a Living
